The Price is Wrong
The First United Presbyterian
Church
“The Price is Wrong”
Rev. Amy Morgan
July 28, 2019
Luke
14:25-33
Now large
crowds were traveling with Jesus;
and
he turned and said to them,
‘Whoever comes to me and does not
hate father and mother,
wife and children,
brothers and sisters,
yes, and even life itself,
cannot be my disciple.
Whoever
does not carry the cross and follow me
cannot
be my disciple.
For
which of you, intending to build a tower,
does
not first sit down and estimate the cost,
to see whether he has enough to
complete it?
Otherwise,
when he has laid a foundation and is not able to finish,
all
who see it will begin to ridicule him, saying,
“This fellow began to build and
was not able to finish.”
Or
what king, going out to wage war against another king,
will
not sit down first and consider whether he is able
with ten thousand
to oppose the one who comes
against him with twenty thousand?
If
he cannot, then,
while
the other is still far away,
he sends a delegation and asks for
the terms of peace.
So
therefore, none of you can become my disciple
if
you do not give up all your possessions.
In
thirty-eight years, the game show The
Price is Right had never seen a contestant guess the exact value of prizes
in the Showcase Showdown. For those of
you who might not be Price is Right
fans, the Showcase Showdown is the finale of the game show. Two lucky contestants get the chance to bid
on a showcase of products – luxury vacations, cars, pool tables, high-end
bikes. Whichever contestant comes
closest to the actual retail price of the items in their showcase without going
over, wins.
Several
people over the years had come close – within $10 of the actual retail price on
packages worth tens of thousands of dollars.
But only one person has ever been perfect.
On
September 22, 2008, Terry Kneiss guessed the correct retail value of a camper,
a jukebox and a pool table to the dollar - 23,743 dollars, to be exact.
Terry had
been studying The Price is Right for
some time before he became a contestant.
He knew the cost of a grill and the cost of a can of Mushroom Soup. In the end, knowing the cost of things won Terry
four vacations, thousands of dollars, and several luxury items. Knowing the cost of things changed his life.
While we
may not all share Terry’s love for The
Price is Right, many of us share Terry’s concern for knowing the cost of
things. We calculate the cost of sending
our kids to college practically before they’re even born. We calculate the cost of retirement versus
working a few more years. We calculate
the cost of in-home nursing care versus residential care. We even calculate the cost of death –
cremation versus burial, cherry casket versus walnut. It doesn’t matter if you’re rich or poor, thrifty
or a spendthrift. Everyone, on some
level, is concerned with cost.
The leaders
of this church spent last Saturday discerning the cost of being 1st
on 4th, The Heart of Christ in the Heart of Loveland; the cost of
maintaining an historic building on the corner of 4th Street and
Jefferson. They considered prayerfully and carefully if we can afford to
continue ministry in this location. At the moment, they believe we can, but the
process of that discernment will continue.
But the
question for the Session last Saturday, and the questions we continue to
explore together, are only partially about a building – capstones and boilers,
carpet and lighting. Sure, we need to know if we can afford to build the tower,
so we don’t end up with projects half done and the funds dried up. But I trust
those are answers we can sort out pretty easily. We can calculate the cost of
worshipping, serving, and growing in faith on the corner of 4th and
Jefferson, now and into the future.
But we
also have to consider whether or not we’ve got enough soldiers in this battle.
The battle against all that seeks to destroy Christ’s ministry in this place.
The forces of extremism and institutionalism. The winds of apathy and hopelessness.
The erosion of neighborliness, kindness, and peace. The decay brought about by
hatred and prejudice.
This
battle is not fought with swords and spears, assault weapons, drones, or tanks.
We don’t need soldiers hopping into fighter jets or directing smart bombs. This
battle is not about violence and bloodshed, and it will cost us more than our
lives. Our enemy is not some “other,” “out there.” We are at war with our pride
and convictions; our self-righteousness; what contemplatives call the
“false-self” or what C.S. Lewis called our “natural self.”
Lewis
says the “natural self” tries to do what is good or right or moral. But at the
end of the day, after we’ve done what we think we have to do to be good,
we hope there is something left over for our “natural self,” that we can
indulge some of our natural desires and inclinations that have been restricted
by goodness.
But the
Christian way, Lewis argues, “is different: harder, and easier. Christ says,
‘Give me All. I don’t want so much of your money and so much of your work: I
want You. I have not come to torment your natural self, but to kill it…Hand
over the whole natural self, all the desires which you think innocent as well
as the ones you think wicked – the whole outfit. I will give you a new self
instead. In fact, I will give you Myself: my own will shall become yours.”
Calculating
what it will cost us to be the church, here in this time and this place, is a
greater equation than we can complete with bids and quotes, with pledges and
membership statistics. Each of us must contemplate whether or not we can afford
to give up our whole selves, whether we can give up our will to acquire the
will of Christ.
Jesus
talks about giving up our possessions, all of them. Because he knew how
intimately we associate who we are with what we have. If we have nothing, in
this society or in just about any other, we are nothing. We have nothing to
protect. Nothing to maintain. And nothing to provide us with any sense of
self-sufficiency. Our possessions are so much more than things. Our whole
identity, our sense of our “natural self,” is defined, in large part, by where
we live, the car we drive, the stores we shop at, the clothes we wear, the
brands we are loyal to.
Jesus
seeks to kill that identity in order to give us a new one. An identity rooted
and grounded in love, as Paul says. An identity that experiences the goodness
of life now and eternity now. An identity that isn’t anxious about building
towers and isn’t at war with itself.
Harder,
and easier. “Take up your cross and follow me,” says Jesus. And “my yoke is
easy and my burden is light.”
Folks who
are part of the Centering Prayer group here are familiar with the practice of
the Welcoming Prayer. The Welcoming Prayer invites whatever may come every
minute of every day, without trying to control or restrict them or react out of
natural compulsions. Our false self - those identities constructed around
selfish desires and inclinations, identities burdened by possessions and
privilege and pretense – cannot withstand the recognition of God’s presence in
all things. The Welcoming Prayer dismantles that false self. It leads us to
give our will to God so that God’s will may become ours.
Welcoming
the alarm that wakes us out of a peaceful sleep, the news of bickering and
deadlocked politicians, the friend who does nothing but gripe and complain, the
family member who only calls when they need money – the list goes on and on –
welcoming these experiences as an opportunity to experience God’s presence and
action in our lives is unthinkable for most of us.
But it is
one path to discovering the cost of following Jesus. It is one path to giving
up our whole selves to God. It is one path to being remade in God’s image
through the love of Jesus Christ.
I wish I
could tell you that church is just the place where you come to be loved and not
judged, supported and cared for, upheld and empowered. It is all those things.
And it is all those things FIRST. As the first letter of John says, “we love
because God first loved us.”
We don’t
walk through these doors for the first time thinking about how much money we’ll
need to pour into this building or how much love we’ll need to share with
others to overcome the darkness we see in ourselves and others. We don’t start
calculating the cost of discipleship until we’ve experienced the love,
forgiveness, peace, and hope of God.
But
people do experience that here. You all have experienced that here. And so the
church is more than just a place where we are loved and supported. It is also
the place where the cost of following Jesus is calculated and paid.
Some of
us might have considered at some point what our commitment to the work of
Christ here will cost us. We might calculate it in our annual pledge or gifts
to special offerings, donations of time and expertise, service to the church in
ordered ministries or on committees. Many of you gave of your time and energy
last week for the Art Hub Camp, and many others have helped plan our church
picnic this afternoon. Folks have been helping to get our nursery up and going
again and helping with plans to hire a new youth ministry worker. Our
discipleship costs us time and energy at the Community Kitchen, 137, and the
Nappie Project.
This
church can’t ask anything more of you. When that call comes asking you to serve
as an elder or deacon, when your friend asks if you’ll help with the next
church event, when stewardship time rolls around again – we are not going to
ask anybody to give more.
We don’t
want more, because Jesus doesn’t want more. More implies that there is
something we can hold back for ourselves. More means that we’ll have something
left over after we’ve done our duty, given our fair share, fulfilled the
expectations. If we try to give more, we’ll end up with less.
C.S.
Lewis says that if we want to try to give more of ourselves and hold anything
back, one of two things will happen. We’ll either burn out and give up; or
we’ll be so resentful about what we give that it would be better for ourselves
and others if we hadn’t bothered.
So we
won’t as for more. We’re going to ask for all. The church is the
only place that can do that. Ask for all your energy, time, money, love, life.
Because Jesus asks for it.
This is a
harder thing to ask for. And easier.
The cost
of ministry at 1st on 4th is high. We do a lot with a
little. We ask a lot of every person here, and to your credit, you deliver.
Generously and enthusiastically. You are capable of being all in, of holding nothing
back. That is why we’re here today and why I’m confident we’ll be here for a
long, long time.
The only
path forward – for each of us individually and for the church – is complete
surrender. Allow God to plow up the whole field and plant something new.
To begin
that process, I’d like to give you all the opportunity to just sample the
practice of the Welcoming Prayer. We’ll go through one practice of this prayer
together, and there are copies of a longer prayer in the fellowship hall if you
want to continue this practice in your daily life.
We’ll
begin now with getting centered in our bodies. I invite you to close your eyes.
Sit in a comfortable position. Take a few deep breaths, opening your heart,
inviting God’s Spirit to flow in you and through you and connect you to the
breath of all who are sharing this sacred time and space.
And now,
I invite you to bring to mind an experience that brought up some big emotions
in you. A time recently when you felt out of control in your emotional state.
Perhaps it is something in the past. Or perhaps it is something you are feeling
right now about something that is going on in your life. Where in your life are
you feeling out of control? Helpless? Angry? Hurt? Unappreciated? Overwhelmed?
Focus on
those big feelings, sink into them, experience the sensations of those feelings
and the thoughts that arise from them.
Now,
welcome God into the midst of those feelings, emotions, thoughts and
sensations. Out loud or in your mind, say “welcome.”
And now,
you may let go by saying, again out loud or in your mind:
“I let go
of the desire for security, affection, control.”
And “I
let go of the desire to change this feeling or sensation.”
You may
repeat those phrases if you need to.
“I let go of the desire for security,
affection, control.”
“I let go
of the desire to change this feeling or sensation.”
Letting
go of our natural self, our false self, our possessed self, is hard. And it is
easy. It is the cost of following Jesus. Giving up everything.
Calculate
that cost, practice and be attentive to it. Give as much of your time and
attention to it as Terry Kneiss gave to The Price is Right. Because
knowing the cost of things, especially the cost of following Jesus, just might
change your life. Amen.
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